… since my last post; about two months! I keep doing that – not keeping up with my posts, I hope to do better some time soon; with more regular posts.
It has however been a very eventful 6/8 weeks for you and me both! Further 6/8 weeks of lock down and working from home for all of us; and trying to keep the spirit high in spite of the physical and social distancing/lack of contact with our friends and loved ones and some losses as well. I hope you have all fared well and are coming out okay, as best as can be, with the slow easing of lock down.
It has been an interesting period of continued self reflection for me. Some powerful realisation of past traumas and the effect they have had on my behaviour, decisions and actions; tears shed as I came to these realisations, forgiveness and moving on, while bearing in mind that I might get triggered still. However with the new knowledge, trusting that I will be able to better manage the triggers when they occur.
Very interesting though is the resonance that perspective is key in everything! Some of the experiences that caused those traumas, I didn’t go through alone, but the impact on me differs totally from those of the others. Perspective really is key: we each choose the meaning we give to occurrences.
I have also clearly mapped out an 8 year vision and the route to getting there. Busy time, but the clarity has meant I have gotten to work. As I do the work, I have found that I am feeling a bit lonely on this journey, but I am also beginning to connect with people on the same trajectory, which is great.
As unusual as this period has been, I am filled with gratitude for the opportunity of time to work on myself; and the direction I am moving towards.
Originally published under my old blog, bitalks. This time of pause brought so much perspective. From unravelling old hurts to outlining new dreams, I’ve felt stretched and grateful all at once. If you’re also navigating healing and building your next chapter, know you’re not alone.
✨ Where has your mind and heart been during this season? I’d love to know.